I needed you and you were not there for me.
You would have hated asking people for help; you must know that I am the same.
In a new city I had to ask new neighbors and new friends for help.
You abandoned me while I was pregnant.
You missed this huge event in my life, and you will never get that back.
You abandoned me for the delivery of my child.
You will never see my newborn.
You will never see my one month old son.
That time has passed and isn’t coming back.
You hurt me.
I didn’t realize you still had the power.
I don’t want to give you any part of me.
Until I get past the hurt
Until I learn how to not be vulnerable to you
Until the emptiness of abandonment fades
I can’t talk to you.